~~My Thots~~
Managed to calm myself down from ah fat's family...i think i, myself is under going the change of his family as well, guess the impact on me too....im touched & appreciated that although he rejected my plan of bookin the tix for tw trip, he is actually planning a trip but definately after his dad goes thru an impt test which decides if his dad needs to go thru immediate therapy..@ least i knw that he really meant to go with me rather just "say say" only..Thank you!! but i still hates u as much for pushing me !!!!
i just gotta realised frm a friend's blog that she has gotten her driving liscense and having so many of her friends giving her congrats & blessings before her test..outta sudden i feel so odd...its like..we're nv like b4...nv meet up, chat for ages...lotsa things im no longer priority in telling or a SURE to tell person..like..im no longer treated as the special fren of hers anymore...well, i definately dun blame anyone, even if i do, the person would be myself cos i can no longer commit time for my frens..
ever since i joined back my old company, ppl tot im enjoying life, but in fact im not...im not regretting but neither am i happy abt my decision made...maybe bcos i am some one whom loves challenge @ work bcos of my leo character...but also bcos im borned in the yr of pig, im fucking lazy to take or continue stress @ work..simply said to be "3 min's hot temper" (direct chinese translate of SAN FEN CHONG RE DU) lol...
i hate my decision cos my results @ sch is dropping, always not enough slp, cant watch tv that much cant go out with frens cant have enough time for family cant do anything that suddenly comes into my mind alrdy...
i kinda hate it esp when ppl @ works loves to ask me scold ppl whom commits mistakes....hahhahahhaha....cos.....they scold not fierce enough mah...wahahhahaha
// my mind full of you!~