~~My Thots~~
Managed to calm myself down from ah fat's family...i think i, myself is under going the change of his family as well, guess the impact on me too....im touched & appreciated that although he rejected my plan of bookin the tix for tw trip, he is actually planning a trip but definately after his dad goes thru an impt test which decides if his dad needs to go thru immediate therapy..@ least i knw that he really meant to go with me rather just "say say" only..Thank you!! but i still hates u as much for pushing me !!!!
i just gotta realised frm a friend's blog that she has gotten her driving liscense and having so many of her friends giving her congrats & blessings before her test..outta sudden i feel so odd...its like..we're nv like b4...nv meet up, chat for ages...lotsa things im no longer priority in telling or a SURE to tell person..like..im no longer treated as the special fren of hers anymore...well, i definately dun blame anyone, even if i do, the person would be myself cos i can no longer commit time for my frens..
ever since i joined back my old company, ppl tot im enjoying life, but in fact im not...im not regretting but neither am i happy abt my decision made...maybe bcos i am some one whom loves challenge @ work bcos of my leo character...but also bcos im borned in the yr of pig, im fucking lazy to take or continue stress @ work..simply said to be "3 min's hot temper" (direct chinese translate of SAN FEN CHONG RE DU) lol...
i hate my decision cos my results @ sch is dropping, always not enough slp, cant watch tv that much cant go out with frens cant have enough time for family cant do anything that suddenly comes into my mind alrdy...
i kinda hate it esp when ppl @ works loves to ask me scold ppl whom commits mistakes....hahhahahhaha....cos.....they scold not fierce enough mah...wahahhahaha
// my mind full of you!~
~Sick Ppl All Arnd~
wanted to celebrate his birthday in mar in taipei...i cant believe that im the only one being anxious on the outing..i understand that his dad is giving probs..sometimes i do have those selfish thinkings of asking him ignore them...b'cos of them, i felt that i am losing him...how can he ask me to go n plan but yet telling me that we might not be able to go!?
every morning he had to 'deliver' his mom n bro to sch which is so freaking early like 6am must wake up. i dun understand Y his family is so selfish..have to be 'delivered' to sch instead of going on their on..
after his 'delivery' he had to go back home to catch abit of rest & waking up, rushing back to work @ anson road...after work still have to go pick up his mom n bro...send them back home for dinner & fell flat on bed to slp..hours that he can spend with me is already so limited... yet his mom n bro still give so much things!!!!!!!
he dad is sick & so is his mom !!! y cant they take care of their own body n stop being a burden to others!!??!!!! i really cant take it any more... i think this r/s of ours might end anytime..
// my mind full of you!~
~~Life So Vulnerable~~
just got to knw bad news..ah fat's dad was quite ill..worried for not only his dad but him as well..thinking whether he can pull thru all the stresses n worries plus work & studies..didnt knw wat i could do for him..his laughters are seldom to be heard for the past few days..didnt knw wat to continue writing...
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~~woRk or StudieS~~
i just realised that its time for me to make great decisions...time really flies, i've joined co' for almost 5mths since sept '06 n my studies have been going downslope + my life style really shitty, really like nite cat nw which of cos my family dun agree to it, my dad keeps finding it dangerous for me to return home late although i have ah fat cos they say gal mah...nite time nt safe...duh~~~ my mom kept telling me u got hm late & slept @ late hrs will look freaking old, haggard ya da ya da...haiz...i simply cant help but to agree after knwing that i cant really cope my studies & work @ the same times...cos office hrs let me knw tat no work commitment in time & holidays dun have to purposely plan as off (like my current) if not i wont be able to enjoy myself like others....shit rite??? one more huge shitty prob!!!!! i getting fatter & fatter!!!!! omg~~~ die lo!!! all efforts wasted!!!! in vain !!!! nw i in this job nite time then eat dunno is eat dinner or supper lo ...timing are always like after 9pm...wat to do?! sian la...cannot have dinner with family, breakfast i cant wake up early enough to have it with them...one day 24hrs they max can see me only 45mins....sian...some times one week not even once @ hm dinner with them cos partly my job & 2 off days i just wana have fun outside with ah fat n really neglected them...guilty..but hate it when they kept forcing me to stop my job...argh~~~~~~ wat to do????? cant service centre just have office hours??? lol
im still deciding wat to do....teach me pls...
// my mind full of you!~
~~GreeTings~~
Hi all,
its been quite some times since i blog, well i must really catch up with most of my friends during this festive seasons..
firstly, i have to declare that my plot worked!!! i bought a couple ring @ ps which have contents of carbon fibre that ah fat had always longing to own a car with that and its quite @ reasonable or rather hmmm pricing!! hahahah, in the end in order to return me a x-mas gift, he bought me another diamond ring from goldheart!!! wah~~~~so happy..over the moon..
2ndly, i have to let u guys knw hw i celebrated my eve & x-mas day, firstly on eve me n ah fat had so call as x-mas dinner with 3 not familiar frens (kelvin's wife & the wife's sis + sis bf) omg~! had dinner @ marina's billy bombers which costs me quite a bomb since ah fat alrdy spent quite a lot on the ring i shld treat him something nice in return...hmm...stupid to have dinner with them seems like we entertain them more lol..after that we headed to paulaner @ milienia walk for a drink n there goes our count down on eve for 2006..
Best thing cum'in up! on the actual day, me n fat went to ps for the show nite @ museum & shortly after the show started, i recieved call from my bro which was quite unbelieveable to me..to my astonishment, the call bring bad news, my mum was involved with a car accident & injured being sent to nuh!!! i was sooooooooooooooo shocked !!!! i really didnt knw wat to do but only to head there hoping to see my mum not badly hurt..luckily nothing much...after spending like $800+++ & probably 5hrs of wait from nuh to gleneagles, my mom is finally declared alrite except some muscles tear..phew~~ wat a frightful x-mas nite...
30th dec - gathering dinner with damien, sien wei, billy + cousin, jiaming, eddie, tim + new gf, me & fat @ cafe cartel, marina + drinks after that!!
31st dec - escape theme park! with ah fat, yiyi, jack & kelvin + angela (husband & wife , "new" friends), its quite fun and we headed down to shenton area arnd 11pm grabbed food @ lau par sat & headed to our secret spot for fireworks!!! and you knw wat? we got ourselves a spot thinking that it might not be that good (cos 'best' seats all taken) but @ 12mn, the fireworks is just in front of us!!!!!! directly!!!!
after then, i've been staying home in the morning n out @ nite with frens doing nothing much just chit chats & cards games.. only yesterday (3rd) i met up with yiyi to shop till leg almost broke n i only got myself a new nice watch @ the price of $10, new blink looking earring @ $12.90/pair &..........a new shirt that is long enough for me to tuck into pants from mng!!!!!!!! only @ the price of $37!!!! michelle told me that Zara is having great sales too & singlets are as low as $5 only!!!!! omg~~~ i cant wait to head there for it man...really feel like flying over to have a look..lol...ok...basically thats hw i spent my holi(s)
// my mind full of you!~