~~Feelings In a Mess~~
firstly, i apologise for not updating my blog that often alrdy..cos i've got nothing much to write..cos not really in the mood recently..dunno y..maybe..lotsa things...my work, relationship, family, friendships, ppl all arnd me?
that day..i was all alone..@ alley bar...drinking..didnt meet up with anyone..cos just had a tiff with my mom..since dunno when...whenever it is near my bday..we'll quarrel..i guess..im e only one whom celebrates bday..tearing..i still remember that on my 21st bday...all turned well..lotsa ppl helped me..that day i got lotsa crew members..ah fat was one of them..he did alot..in helping making the bday chalet came true..but..its just..something is lacking..no family members @ all..hahaha..well..when i saw ppl's family happily celebrating their bday...i feel so...envious..even after yrs of finding out y they dislike celebration for bday..i still cant accept the fact..where got parent like that?! Although i knw...its for my own good...but i just, want a simple celebration with them .. but neh..its nv coming to come true..so over the yrs...i learnt...not to celebrate bday with family..no need..i wont die..i still got ah fat..and my die hard crews n guests...ahhahaha..all of them whom attended and make the chalet or bbq everytime coming true...i got so many ppl to replace their positions..im more than happy..can get drunk..can smoke like nobody business..can crap...can laugh so hard till i hit the floor..but dunno y..everytime when the "show" ends..im back to not smiling...
okie...enuff of sad past..life goes on...with or w/o...the world goes on spinning...
talk abt something funny...or maybe happy..my bday celebration cum gathering is coming soon..looking forward for it sia...going to make it happy...actually i didnt intend to have any cakes..but ah fat say his fren can help bake cakes..hahah...and ask for design..so i gave his fren a mission impossible..wahahha..hopefully that day all of u will be impressed with my talents..i mean idea and his talents...hahhaha...b4 this bday celebration thingy starts rolling..there are a few ppl that i've to thank first..
(1) my crews - jackson, eddie, adel, yiyi, kat, ah fat, jiawah, noelle, mandy, lai...ok...actually...everyone is my crew..hahahahahhahaaaahahhahahahahah...
(2) guests - those whom will make effort n time to come n be happy with me...wahahahahahahah
(3) chef for baking the mission impossible cake - ah fat's ex-camp-mate malcom
(4) choon liang - the person whom stunned me with lotsa lotsa funny funny ideas...like..cake knife with ribbon..ahhahahahaa
that day's prepration is alrdy like...7788...oh ya..and then hor..must tell u all one sad news...hahaha...that day i was saying.."wah..my bday like going to be so happy...enjoyable...memorable..but hor...like lack of flowers..."
immed after my sentence..asshole reply.."no flowers this yrs..waste $"
TMD~~~~
but doesnt means u ppl gotta buy me flower...cos i buay gian liaoz...wahahahha...
ReLaTonShp....
Recently, seems cursed....lotsa ppl arnd me seems to be troubled by the word..relationship..
suddenly quite a few of my friends came to meet up n told me abt this relationships on the rock..quarrels..tiffs..haiz..wat can i do...listen..im a good listener..customer service mah...bo bian...ahahhhah...but then..it made me realise something..being together is impt to have mutual trust, same direction, and the guy..must love the gf, cherish her, even though she might be wrong sometimes..but not to give up a r/s so easily by saying break - ups...cos this is not a right of guys...it belongs to woman..a woman can say 100 times of break - up but the r/s is still there...once the guy said just once..even if he said in fit of anger of loose mind, its a death-trap....the gal...will be..awaken by this n .. let go off the r/s...even if the r/s has been arnd for yrs...
sometimes i really find ah fat is a nice person (i knw...lotsa ppl say to me...pls stop..he'll fall off mid sky..) i simply can tell that he's good to me, dotes me, giving in to me, watever i wan will give me, freedom, protection, even if i were to meet up with ex-bfs he's fine with it..cos we have mutual trust...both of us (cos he knws nobody else wans me ... *vice versa* **grinz**)
i do cherish the time n everything that we've gone thru..but sometimes..he's a PEST to me..feels like spraying baygon on him!!!! get rid of him!!!
argh~~~i shall end here.
// my mind full of you!~